Gemma Collins' relationship caused her to have a nervous breakdown.
'The Only Way Is Essex' star called off her engagement to Rami Hawash last month and has now admitted she was unhappy throughout the three-year romance as the mechanic was abusive and destroyed her self esteem.
She said: "It was a gradual thing. He made me feel bad about myself. He'd say I was a 'fatsie'. If I got dressed up to go out he'd say, 'Look at you' with this sneer on his face and tell me I should put on jeans and a top. We would row all the time...
"I honestly think I went through a nervous breakdown. I felt under such pressure. I was trying to keep all these plates spinning - my business, 'TOWIE', my relationship - and I was exhausted from it.
"I'm naturally a happy person but particularly toward the end I know my personality changed. I'd blow up over small things, I was comfort eating because I was unhappy, and I didn't like going out. I ended up putting on about three stone. For the past three years, it's like I've been hovering on the edge of a breakdown. I haven't been happy for a very long time."
Gemma - who admits she often felt Rami was only with her because of her fame - is grateful for the support of her 'TOWIE' co-stars, particularly ex-boyfriend James 'Arg' Argent.
She told Now magazine: "The girls have been amazing. When things were bad Jess Wright or Sam and Billie Faiers would take me to one side and look after me. They all told me they saw my personality change
"But Arg was my rock. When we had fights I'd sometimes go and stay with Arg and his parents. I always knew I could turn to him and I knew he wouldn't judge me. He was kind and he'd listen and dry my tears. I love him to bits."

Holly Willoughby and Christine Bleakley will present 'This Morning' together next month.
The ITV daytime show will break from its tradition of having a unisex presenting duo when regular host Phillip Schofield takes a break to film the new series of 'All Star Mr & Mrs'.
Holly, 32, will team up with the Irish beauty - who often fills in for her when she's absent - on Monday, March 17 and Tuesday, March 18.
'This Morning' editor Adam Vandermark said: "Holly and Christine will make a great new hosting combination - their friendship and love of the show will be reflected I'm sure. 'This Morning' hasn't had an all-female hosting duo for quite a while, so it'll bring a fresh and fun few days for our viewers."
Christine, 35, hosted 'This Morning' with Phillip while Holly was on holiday earlier this year.
Meanwhile, 'The X Factor' host Dermot O'Leary joined Holly on the sofa during Phillip's holiday.
Christine previously presented ITV's 'Daybreak' with Adrian Chiles in 2010 after defecting from BBC, but the pair were unceremoniously axed amid low viewing figures a year later.
The TV star currently hosts 'Dancing on Ice' with Phillip on Sunday evenings.

Howard Stern failed to attend his own birthday party after-party.
The 60-year-old DJ headed home after his four-hour celebrations at the Hammerstein Ballroom in New York on Friday (31.01.14), leaving his wife Beth Ostrosky and talk show host Jimmy Kimmel to host the follow-up bash at the Jazz Room at the General on the Bowery.
Guests at the afterparty included David Spade, Chris Rock, Dave Grohl, Johnny Knoxville, John Mayer and Sarah Silverman.
According the New York Post newspaper, Aerosmith's Steven Tyler was spotted looking at himself in the mirror and dancing to his own hit single 'Walk This Way'.
Earlier in the evening, Howard - who turned 60 on January 12 - had admitted throwing a lavish birthday party was "egotistical" but was excited about broadcasting his Sirius XM show from the bash.
Speaking to 'Entertainment Tonight', he said: "It's a bit egotistical to have a birthday party but it's a great way to do something different, we're outside the studio and I'm thrilled, it's going to be a lot of fun.
"I'm very honoured that David Letterman's coming, I'm a big fan, we go way back and I panicked like you're studying for an exam, I must have written 150 questions for him.
"Jimmy Kimmel is hosting, he flew here on the red eye, he got here at 6am and had a couple of hours sleep, unbelievable."

Jennifer Lawrence's life has been turned into a comic book.
The 'X-Men: Days of Future Past' actress' career from her breakthrough role in 2010 movie 'Winter's Bone' to her Oscar win last year for 'Silver Linings Playbook' and nomination this year for 'American Hustle' is covered in 'Fame: Jennifer Lawrence, which has been created by writer Michael Troy and artist Ben Eargle.
Michael said: "Jennifer Lawrence is a true inspiration as a talented actress and a down to earth young woman with amazing wit. I was happy to tell her tale."
And Ben found the 23-year-old beauty to be "animated", which fits perfectly with his illustrations.
He said: "It was a lot of fun working on the book just because Jennifer is such an interesting person. All the different actors and actresses that she has worked with provided a lot of interesting material. She's a very animated person, which works with my style!"
The comic is available in the US for $3.99, and has also been turned into an interactive app, which is for sale via iTunes, Google Play, and the Amazon Appstore for $2.99.

Philip Seymour Hoffman admitted his drug habit was going to kill him just weeks before his death.
The 'Capote' actor - who was found dead from an apparent heroin overdose at his home on Sunday (02.02.14) - reportedly told friends in December that he was struggling to stay clean from the narcotic for more than few days and even returned to Alcoholics Anonymous meetings to get support to stay sober.
According to gossip website TMZ, the actor was drinking heavily and looked "disheveled and dirty" in the weeks before his death and when asked how bad his problem was, he replied: "If I don't stop I know I'm gonna die."
It was reported yesterday (03.02.14) that police found 50 packets of heroin and 20 used hypodermic needles in the actor's New York home.
Many of the bags were stamped with 'Ace of Spades' or 'Ace of Hearts', which users say is heroin cut with a powerful pain reliever called fentanyl.
Other items recovered from the property include a charred spoon and five different medications which police suspect the 'Doubt' star didn't have prescriptions for.
Philip - who was sober for over 20 years before relapsing last year - was found unconscious at around 11.15am on Sunday by his friend David Bar Katz, who called for assistance.
David had gone to check on the actor after he failed to pick up his children Tallulah, seven, Cooper, ten and Willa, five.
His children live close by to the $10,000 a month apartment he was renting with their mother, Philip's estranged partner Mimi O'Donnell.

Justin Bieber reportedly bragged to a friend that Selena Gomez lost her virginity to him.
The on/off couple first confirmed their relationship in February 2011 and then enjoyed a vacation later that year.
The 19-year-old singer then told a pal the 21-year-old beauty had shown she was "in love" with him by agreeing to have sex for the first time during the break.
The friend told RadarOnline.com: "Justin told me, 'I knew she was in love with me when she gave me her virginity.' He said it with no embarrassment or shyness whatsoever."
The couple enjoyed a "super private" break to Palm Springs, California, to consummate their relationship and affirm their love for one another.
The source said: "It was in the summer of 2011. They flew to Palm Springs for a couple days and had a super private place to stay.
"The purpose of the trip was 100 percent because Selena finally said 'yes' to having sex with him. They agreed because they both said they were in love."
Earlier that year, Justin - who has been pictured in a number of strip clubs in recent months - spoke out against casual sex.
He said: "I don't think you should have sex with anyone unless you love them."

Wiley has scrapped his new album after spending $42,000 on recording sessions.
The East London-rapper has revealed he isn't happy following the completion of his ninth studio album 'Snakes and Ladders' and took to Twitter on Monday (03.02.14) to tell fans he plans to start the project from scratch.
Wiley wrote: "I am gonna scrap snakes and ladders and start again cos I ain't happy with it ... Needs to be epic or else there is no point. (sic)
"Start from scratch ... I very rarely do this that's why I am gonna try it. (sic)"
The album was set to feature collaborations with fellow Grime stars - Lethal Bizzle, Devlin and US rapper Cam'ron - but fans hoping Wiley would unveil the unwanted tracks for free will be left disappointed as he claims they cost him too much money to give away.
He added: "I ain't leaking s**t either ... not this time I'm 42 thousand dollars in ....NOLEAKS LOL (sic)"
The news comes after the 'Holiday' rapper reportedly refused to refund the £15,000 fee he had been paid to perform at Cumbria's Cockrock festival last July, which he played for only 15 minutes before being booed off stage.

Channel 4 has commissioned a full series of Caitlin Moran's 'Raised by Wolves'.
The broadcaster screened a pilot episode of the sitcom in December and has now decided to order six 30-minute episodes of the show, which is based on Caitlin's own childhood.
Author and columnist Caitlin wrote the episode with her sister Caroline and the show was produced by Big Talk Productions.
Big Talk's Kenton Allen said in a statement: "Caitlin and Caroline have a truly original comic voice. I'm delighted Channel 4 are giving them the chance to entertain the world with the joys of unconventional life in Wolverhampton."
The sitcom follows the adventures of two young siblings, who are raised by their unconventional mother.
Prolific writer Caitlin celebrated the news on Twitter, enthusing: "So me and @cazmoran are making a whole series of Raised By Wolves! Hurrah (sic)"
She later added: "awww THANK YOU. we're still punching the air. Been doing it for four hours now. Quite tired. (sic)"
The first episode - which aired on Channel 4 on December 23, 2013 - drew just under 500,000 viewers in its 10:50pm time slot.

Britain's Prince Charles has donated £50,000 to aid flood victims in Somerset.
The Prince of Wales visited the ravaged county in south west England today (04.02.14) and pledged his financial support through the Prince's Countryside Fund charity.
Victoria Elms of the Prince's Countryside Fund said: "Rural communities in the south west are facing a second consecutive year of flooding.
"The Prince's Countryside Fund exists to support the people who live and work in the countryside and we hope this financial aid will go some way to supporting the farmers, businesses and families who are facing severe hardships as a result of the flooding.
"Rural businesses are key to thriving communities and we want to help get hard-hit villages back on their feet and open for business."
In an adventurous trip, the 65-year-old royal reached the village of Mucheleney by police boat and later travelled by tractor along the flooded roads to witness the devastation caused by the flooding.
Speaking at a reception, Prince Charles declared that it was a "tragedy" that more hadn't been done to aid victims of the flooding in Somerset.
He said: "There's nothing like a jolly good disaster to get people to start doing something. The tragedy is that nothing happened for so long."

Jimmy Fallon thinks fame is "awesome".
The new presenter of 'The Tonight Show' treasures every moment of his success because of a stint in the Hollywood wilderness when he turned his hand to acting after leaving 'Saturday Night Live' in 2004.
He said: "It was rough days! I couldn't get arrested, man.
"[Fame] is a treat, it's awesome, because I know what it's like not to be famous. When you experience both sides of it, this side is much better."
The 39-year-old presenter - who has six-month-old daughter Winnie with wife Nancy Juvonen - also admitted he is going to embrace being a "rich old white guy" and become more fanatical about golf.
He told New York magazine: "Golf is gonna be my thing. I have to be a rich old white guy, that's what I have to become. It's so sad, but I gotta play the part, man. I've already got my cardigan."
Jimmy is a regular golf player but in an attempt to get better, he has had clubs specially made and takes weekly lessons, as well as doing calisthenic exercises with a ball.
He joked: "I twerk for about 25 minutes. There's a lot of hip motions - Shakira is probably very good at golf."

Woody Allen feels "overwhelming sadness" for Dylan Farrow.
The 'Blue Jasmine' filmmaker's adopted daughter spoke out at the weekend alleging he had abused her at the age of seven, but the director's lawyer insists none of the allegations are true and were simply "implanted" by her mother, Woody's former partner Mia Farrow.
Lawyer Elkan Abramowitz told the 'Today' show: "His reaction is one of overwhelming sadness because of what has happened to Dylan.
"She was a pawn in a huge fight between him and Mia Farrow years ago, and the idea that she was molested was implanted in her by her mother. That memory is never going to go away. So the fact that she says this now, that it happened 20 years ago, is totally understandable."
The lawyer insists Dylan - who is now 28 and goes by a different name - isn't "lying" but she doesn't realise she was fed a false story.
He added: "In my view, she's not lying. I think she truly believes this happened. That's what the vice of this is. When you implant a story in a fragile seven year old's mind, it stays there forever. It never goes away."
The claims were previously investigated and dismissed in 1992, and the lawyer believes they have only resurfaced now out of Mia's "desire to hurt" her former partner.
He said: "Woody Allen is not interested in suing anybody for defamation. He was determined not to have molested his daughter 20 years ago. The case is over. There is no case. The fact that it is being brought up now is suspect. The timing is suspect.
"I think that it's a continuation of Mia Farrow's desire to hurt Woody Allen. And Woody Allen is now riding fairly high. He got the Golden Globe Award for lifetime achievement, which he totally deserved. And I believe it revived the anger that she has toward him."

Olivia Newton John is set to headline her own Las Vegas show.
The 65-year-old singer - famed for appearing alongside John Travolta as Sandy in the 1978 film adaptation of 'Grease!' - will perform classic songs from the musical in addition to her own pop singles, when her residency at the Donny and Marie Showroom in The Flamingo Hotel kicks off on April 8.
According to USA TODAY the show - named 'Summer Nights' - will run for 45 nights with dates scheduled throughout the summer, and fans will enjoy iconic 'Grease!' hits such as 'Hopelessly Devoted to You' and 'You're the One That I Want'.
Olivia is the latest to headline a show in Las Vegas, as Shania Twain and Donny and Marie Osmond all have concerts in Sin City, while Britney Spears began her two-year residency at Planet Hollywood Resort and Casino last November.
If successful, the series of concerts could prove lucrative for Olivia as Celine Dion has seemingly been cashing in from her residency at Caesars Palace over the last three years.
The 'My Heart Will Go On Singer' reportedly earns £33 million a year from her Las Vegas shows and announced last March she would be extending her residency for another five years.