Maria Fowler suffered a miscarriage "a few weeks ago."
The former ‘The Only Way is Essex’ star has revealed she and her fiance Kelvin Batey – who already have two-year-old daughter Evie together – found out they were expecting their second child earlier this year, but were devastated when they tragically lost the embryo in the first trimester a short while after their positive test.
Taking to her blog last nigh (02.05.18), she said: "A few weeks ago we discovered we were expecting another baby, I can’t tell you how excited we were.
"It came at the perfect time and we couldn’t have felt happier. Unfortunately, soon after we found out, sadly I had bleed and we lost the baby.
"I feel silly even referring to it as a baby as we were really early in the pregnancy and had not yet had a scan but I did grieve and I did feel like I had lost something very special. I feel it is such a cruel twist of fate to get such happy news and then have it taken away. Just like that. No explanation.
"We had been out for dinner to celebrate, told our families and I had told a couple of my friends. When I started to bleed I did hold out some hope, we had a bleed early on with Evie and everything was ok. I have been told bleeds in early pregnancy are quite common so was hoping this would be the case. Unfortunately, it carried on the whole next day and then continued for a few days.
"On the first day of the bleed, after ringing 111 for advice, I went to the out of hours’ doctors. I was met with a doctor (?) I’m not sure if he was a doctor but he saw me anyway. He flatly told me "It sounds like you’ve had a miscarriage" I was confused and upset and felt it was wrong of him to diagnose me at that point with no medical back up. At this stage the bleed was similar to what I experienced with Evie so I headed home angry & upset. I really wanted him to be wrong. (sic)"
The 31-year-old former glamour girl admitted the "hardest thing" for her was the following week when her pregnancy symptoms – such as nausea – kicked in.
She explained: "I think the hardest thing was the week after, I still had pregnancy symptoms and despite the loss, my morning sickness actually came a couple of days later which felt a massive kick in the teeth.
"I had the morning sickness for 3 days and every time I felt that wave of sickness it took me right back to how I felt when I was pregnant with Evie, waves of nostalgia and also sadness that this time it wasn’t meant to be. (sic)"
Despite their loss, Maria and Kelvin – who are engaged to be married – would still like to have another child one day but they’re going to wait until after their wedding.
The brunette beauty said: "I think now plans for a second baby will have to go on hold till after our wedding now. We hoped to have our children close together but sadly things don’t always go to plan, I’m a firm believer in things happening for a reason.
"It wasn’t the right time and clearly my body knew that something wasn’t quite right. Right now we are moving forward and looking forward to the exciting things we have planned. (sic)"